It was hard to find words that will correctly describe what the past year has been like for me without offending and triggering everyone. In short I’ve come to a point in my life where I simply don’t care. All that matters to me is that I’m not dead yet. The rest simply is not important.
I say that the rest is not important to me because Iv’e been familiarized all too well with this simple fact of life and that is that I’m not important. Before you have those apposing opinions, just stop. Isaac Asimov has summed it up the best:
“There is a cult of ignorance in the [world], and there always has been. The strain of anti-intellectualism has been a constant thread winding its way through our cultural an political life, nurtured by the false notion that democracy means that ‘my ignorance is just as good as your knowledge.’”
Only it is not. Your freedom of speech is not knowledge, it doesn’t mean that you can say whatever you feel like. Sadly people cast opinions out to the world and never take responsibility for it. Its true, people say things just for the sake of saying it or because they feel the need to say something, like I’m doing right now. It took me a while to really accept this and I’m not sharing this with the world to try and convince others to share my look upon life, cos lets face it, my life sucks at the moment (2017/06/21) and that’s the only reason why I can accept this fact. I’ve learned that you need to see the shitty side of things to really understand and appreciate the not so shitty side and learn why its important to take responsibility for what you say and do.
We are all privileged. We all have the same thing and that is life. Life is not always beautiful. Its not always easy to live. Life can be equally bad as it can be good and oh how I wish I’m saying this without merit cos it was shit to gain that merit (pun most definitely intended). There is only one guarantee we get in life and that is death. We can only control one thing in life and that is our attitudes towards the things that happens to us during our time in this life. I know I am not important and that has made me not care about other unimportant things. If I disappear right now the world will go on, life will go on because I am not important. To the rest of the world I know I am not important but to me I am vital, important lacks the depth needed to describe what I am to myself. No matter how bad things get, I can always say that I am not dead yet. That’s the only real truth in life, while you live you’re not dead yet. While we live we are privileged to have the responsibility to live.